my walking epiphany....

ok so yesterday, i went for a walk. just a calm, relaxing walk. to think. ponder, wonder, work things out...just to chill. i love walking, it always calms me and gives me a new perspective on things when i can't work them out.
so i was thinking, during my walk yesterday, that i'm so lucky. it amazes me that some days i feel like the world is against me and nothing's fair and i want more than i already have. THEN i go for a walk...and i realize that i have so much. i have more than so many people do, and sometimes it makes me feel guilty that i have so much more than so many people in the world. i wish i could give away everything sometimes.
but that's not exactly the point i wanted to get to here...the point is, i have the power. it's taken me so long to really realize this but i've been being so stupid for the last however many years, wanting and wanting and then never going out and actually GETTING what i want. i've tried to justify it to myself, saying, "it's not the time" or "things will happen when they're meant to happen" but when it comes right down to it, i can't use that justification anymore. it's not right, and it doesn't work, and it's led me to where i am now. wanting and dreaming and knowing i can have what i want...but i don't. i know what i have to do. and i can't keep making up excuses to myself as to why i'm not doing it. it's pathetic. i know what i want and i know i can have it. what i don't know is why it's taken me so long to get to this point. i've said this a thousand times so i'm not going to do it again...no more "this is it, this is the last time, no more excuses, deadlines"..blah blah blah. i know the woman i want to be, and i'm sick of making excuses why i'm not trying harder to get what i want. i will be the woman i want to be. no excuses, no deadlines, no justifications...none of the past crap. i'm just going to give it my all and leave it at that. if i fall on my face, i'll get back up. i don't care how long it takes for me to get what i want, but i am going to get it. no matter what it takes, no matter how long it takes. i'm not going to make myself feel guilty anymore for not trying cause i am going to TRY. i'm going to try my best and give it my all and not take second best cause i deserve better!! i'm not going to be walked on top of, i'm not going to take anyone's bull and i'm going to try my absolute best in everything that i do!!
feeling so empowered right now =) it's great!!
keep you all updated on progress. much love, k xo